There is a start state, an end state to everything in life.

What are your expectations when you start something?

How do you want to end something?

Always seek to answer these questions and they will guide you and enlighten you along your path to greater wisdom and to greater trust in life.

As I’m nearing the end (four more months of pain) of yet another part of my life, I am glad that I have thought through the questions above and have gained what I wanted to gain thus far and I know I will gain even more in the months to come.

Not many would have had the chance to bear responsibility for 30 people, be responsible for their well-being, discipline, turnout and bearing as well as their emotional, interactive needs and wants. Some things can be taught, some things can be learned but not this…you need to undergo this baptism of fire before you understand what I mean.

As much as I want to pull away from being too emotionally invested in my job, I can’t help but worry each and everyday if they are happy and satisfied or if they seek anything more that I could help them with. It hurts and tears me apart each and everyday and I continually have to put a front.

It’s not healthy, but it gets the job done. Hang in there, self.